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Thursday, November 12, 2009

so I made a decision....

I'm leaving UWG for WGTC

I'm super excited...

so sad to be leaving my jobs....

I'm gonna miss Jamaal....
...but I hope to stay in contact ;)
he's so freakin' cute




Does the last person you shared a bed/couch with mean anything to you?
let's see...couch? um......not sure who that was...someone on my staff I'm sure

Are you dating the last person you kissed?
nope......but he'll always have part of my heart

Can you handle the truth?
for the most part

Do you kiss a lot of people?
not enough.....I'm a whore

If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
heh....I'd like to be in someone's arms

Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
naw

Would you rather have loved and lost, or never have loved at all?
loved and lost....

Have you ever streaked across a football field?
nope

Your most recent ex says he/she hates you, you say:
That's too bad...bye!

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
quite often

Who do you trust the most in your life?
hm....still Jeremy actually

Who has hurt you the most?
Jeremy again

Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
nope

Are you happy with where you are relationship wise now?
yeah...but I want to date someone...no relationship though

How long ago did you hug someone?
Jamaal a couple hours ago....over the desk lol

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
alcohol :D

Do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive

Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
yeah

What gets you happy?
when he gives me hugs

Who was the last person you yelled at?
dunno....

Do you know anyone who's addicted to any drugs?
i'm sure

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
not so much

Where did you sleep last night?
right here

Did you have a good day yesterday?
yesterday? um...it was aight

What was the highlight of today?
...um.......talking to him....he eyes...they melt me

Do you hate anyone?
yeah, I do

Do they know who they are?
nope

Do you have a best friend?
Annemarie & Amanda

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
nope

Put iTunes on shuffle, what is the third song that comes up?
"The Night Before (Life Goes On)" Carrie Underwood

When was the last time you bought something?
um...I bought a Javalanche today

Have you ever told someone you love them?
yeah, I miss it a little bit

Do you play an instrument?
nope

What’s the reason behind your myspace display name?
don't have myspace anymore

Is there anyone you call baby?
my bear...every night

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to most?
Thanksgiving, my birthday, transferring, basketball season, new jobs (I hope)

Have you ever dated someone older than yourself?
always

Have you ever got naked at a party?
nope

Does a kiss make you feel better when you're angry?
sometimes...depends on who it's from

Is your phone within a meter radius of you?
on my chest

What are you wearing?
shorts & t-shirt

What color is the thing you are sitting on right now?
purple sheet

Are you doing this just because you're bored?
I want people to know...even if they do'nt care

What is bothering you right now?
headache

Was last New Year's enjoyable?
it was....interesting to say the least

I'll bet you miss someone right now?
yeah

Are you high?
naw

What is your desktop picture?
it's one I got from dA...it says "I Love" and then you is being erased

Do you shop for clothes?
sometimes, not very often

Where do you think your best friend is right now?
i think they're both in bed...or at least at their homes

Who else is in the room with you right now?
no one....well, fishy

Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
nope

How often do you get onto myspace/facebook?
facebook 24/7

Do you have any enemies?
naw

Ever fell in a hole?
hahaha, not a big one

What last made you sad?
he went to D-Wing when we were leaving so when I went back to the lobby he wasnt there

Where did you last sleep other than your house?
Lee's apartment?



Monday, October 26, 2009

1. What was the last dream you remember?
dunno...but squirrel was in it

2. Your boss tells you they will give you a $20/hr raise if you will do your job naked, do you?
nope

3. Your boy/girlfriends ex calls and needs a tire change, do you let them go help?
unless there's a reason not to sure....i'm friends with my exes....

4. Ever seen a ghost?
no, but he was there

5. Do you love anyone?
sure

6. A reason you would move to Iceland?
the person i loved was there

7. A place you have lived that you miss?
Tybee

8. A person that you miss?
um............Annemarie, I really need to call her and tell her what's going on, since i couldn't last time we talked

9. A band/group you thought was cool when you were little?
idk

10. You have a nightmare, who is the first person you think to tell?
no one, unless they were in it

11. Do you wanna have kids before you are 30?
please

12. A memory from high school?
um......idk.....sitting along the wall in the mornings

13. Ever had a crush on one of your friends parents?
nope

14. Silliest thing you have done?
*shrugs* anything I do with the asian and my wifey

15. Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
mommy

16. Something you have always wanted to do?
fall in love

17. If you could be with one person who would it be?
right now? no one comes to mind...

18. Where you would like to be in 10 years?
happy

19. Something you learned about life this year?
I have to make the best of whatever happens

20. What do you want for your birthday?
a good day

21. Have you said I love you to anyone today?
today? yeah...family

22. Last item you bought yourself?
bread, cheese, cookies & cream

23. What did you have for breakfast?
nada

24. Name a celeb you think is hot?
um.....Taye Diggs

25. What is your ring tone?
Warp?

26. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
depends on the night

27. Have you ever been tied up?
ahaha, no

28. What do you wish you were doing right now?
sleeping

29. Last time you witnessed a fight?
Ashley was hoping to see one yesterday

30. What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
vodka and watermelon lemonade

31. Where do you rent your movies?
Netflix

32. Ever had a black eye?
no

33. Last people you went out with?
Ashley, Lee, Stephanie, Braxton

34. Name five places you would like to travel to?
Paris, Hawaii, England, Australia, North Pole

35. Is there anyone you want to date at the moment?
I would love to date....Shiloh, or um...Anthony
but nothing serious, just dating and cuddle buddys

36. Favorite food?
steak

37. Silk or lace?
silk

38. Last board/card game you played?
idk

39. What do you think of Brad Pitt?
i don't know really

40. What is your favourite drink?
water

41. What color are your toenails?
blue

42. Last person you talked with on the phone?
papa

43. Do you own anything with a skull on it?
maybe?

44. Have you traveled to Europe?
nope :(

45. Last movie you watched?
Why Do Fools Fall In Love

46. If you could be anything in the world what would it be?
happy

47. Last sin committed?
lust? lol, idk?


Sunday, October 25, 2009

Holding My Own

My life is changing...constantly
I'm probably leaving UWG in the spring...
Hopefully I'll be attending WGTC & working on an Administrative Assistant Diploma
Housing....probably the best thing will be living at my grandparents, but they're taking a 3 month trip to Australia so it would be like having a house to myself ;)
I have NO idea where I would be working...I can't imagine not working at Career Services or being an RA
I would have to get a car....
and make myself eat regularly

but I think it will be better for me
Plus I'll still be in the same town with my friends
I'll probably be on campus ALL the time
No one will even know I'm taking classes elsewhere

I have a crush. I haven't had a CRUSH since high school.
I forgot what it's like to have a crush
I mean, of course I've liked guys (lots of them) but it wasn't a crush, you know the difference?
well, he's an A Phi A and really well known on campus....
he was first runner up for Homecoming King
and HE'S the one that talked to me first
He makes me smile every time I see him and is really sweet
I know nothing will ever come of it, but it's good to have him around

anyways...tha'ts my life, how's yours??

Thank you I'm holding my own
You hurt me when you left me alone
But there's two sides to every door
And the life you left behind has led
to lives I'd have never known
So thank you I'm holding my own



Thursday, June 25, 2009

I was doing so well avoiding the new xanga and I totally just failed and it makes me really sad because I have no idea how to use the new one :/

This summer is crazy,
I'm exhausted.
Ready to go back to school


Monday, May 25, 2009

It may have been a dream, but it was a dream come true...
I fell in love with a dream that broke me...

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I'm working on collecting the quotes that come to me...


1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
but of course

2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Allen

3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
not particularly

4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
last night with my mother

7. What are you excited for?
um....seeing frank I suppose, oh and camp on wednesday

8. What were you doing yesterday?
a hell of a lot of nothing

9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
not sure, mother probably

10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
my finger

11. Have a best friend?
3

12. Are you scared to fall in love?
terribly, and worse than that I'm afraid to let go of love that will never be for fear I'll never find love that can be

13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
yeah, I do

14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
um....i don't know

15. What time is it right this second?
1:43

16. What do you want right now?
sleep

17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
iunno........Jenique?

19. When was the last time you cried?
my eye appears to be watering currently, idk why

20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
mmhm

21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
not really

22. How fast does your mind change?
extremely

23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
I do, but I'll have him in August, he'll be all mine, I hope I don't hurt him
I hope he doesn't hurt me....

24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
yeah, I can

25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
a lot of reasons, it's different for everyone

26. Tell me what's on your mind?
nothing really...missing Kyle, thinking about Frank, my eye watering, talking to Alex

27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
camp

28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yeah

29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
on myspace it's Amanda, I don't know...some time in the last couple days

30. When is your next road trip?
don't know....fall break probably...assuming they don't take it away from us

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
yeah

32. How's your heart?
longing

33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
daily

34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
no

35. What are you planning on doing after this?
maybe getting my clothes from the dryer

36. Next time you will kiss someone?
hopefully in August, maybe July 31 if he comes to help me move in
....i was just thinking, he should get a puppy since he's in an apartment and I'll get a fishy

37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
no

38. Who do you not get along with?
a lot of people, but they don't necessarily know it lol

39. what does you 3rd recent text say?
"Night"   .......holy crap, I don't remember getting that message, I must've sleep read it (I have a tendency to do it)

40. What are you wearing right now?
jeans, belt, undies, shirt, bra, class ring, 5 earrings, nose ring, glasses

41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
gah.......awkward, me probably trying to keep him from kissing on me

42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
um...yesterday

43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
Chrysalis & Timothy Christopher

44. How did you feel when you woke up?
iunno

45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
not really

46. Do you crack your knuckles
mmmmhm

47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
watching 30 Rock

48. What are your LEGAL initials?
DLH

49. Whos the first B in your contacts?
Baldwin, Angela

50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
not sure

51. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
most likely depending on why she left

52. Last awkward moment?
iunno, Saturday probably, when Alex left

53. Are you afraid of the dark?
no

54. Do you have good vision?
not at all

55. Have you ever kissed in the rain?
no

56. Have you ever slapped someone?
nuh uh

57. Are you irish?
I have some

58. Do you use chap stick?
sometimes

59. Do you have any scars?
lots

60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
no

62. Name the last person to text you?
Frank

63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
most likely not

64. Can you go in public looking like you do?
yeah, I'm going to when Frank gets here :D

65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a S?
um.........not that I can think of

66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
eh, iunno

67. Whats the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
iunno, wake up most likely

68. What one huge pet peeve?
I have a lot

69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
yeah

70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
not really

71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Jeremy, I'm not sure I ever was with him

72. Song you're thinking of right now?
um....When A Woman's Fed Up - R.Kelly

73. Want someone back in your life?
not so much

74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
tomorrow should be good :)

75. What’s the color of you’re shirt you are wearing?
blue

76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
yeah, Mike finally kept that promise, even if he was drunk

77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
sometimes

79.Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
mostly natural

80. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
not yet



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